BTS | The Making of The Core
The Layers You Don’t See
Each part of The Core holds a piece of the process:
The blurred transitions → moments of softness and surrender
The textured middle → the “core” of expression before fear steps in
The muted neutrals → grounding, calm, inner quiet
The soft green haze → growth, renewal, the return to self
Every layer stayed visible by design. I didn’t want to polish the emotion out of it.
I wanted the rawness to stay.
Why This Piece is Special
The Core marks the beginning of my new style — one rooted in feeling rather than performance. It taught me that art doesn’t have to be loud to be powerful. It can whisper and still move you deeply.
If you’ve ever tried to reconnect with a version of yourself you thought you lost, this piece carries that same energy.
It’s a return.
A quiet awakening.
A soft but undeniable shift.
A quiet look into the making of this piece
The Core was born on a quiet afternoon — the kind where everything inside you feels full and buzzing, but the world around you is still. I sat on the floor, surrounded by the familiar mess of brushes, jars, and colors that have followed me through every season of my life.
I didn’t approach this painting with a plan. I didn’t map out shapes or worry about balance. I simply reached inward and followed whatever wanted to come through. The textured center began as a blur of movement — layered strokes, pulled pigment, moments of hesitation, and moments of release. It was the first time in a long time that I let myself create without thinking, without judging, without rushing to the end.
As the colors spread across the canvas, something shifted. The hazy greens and washed neutrals softened into each other like breath meeting sky. It felt like watching a memory return — familiar but somehow new.
This piece became a mirror of the moment I let emotion take the lead again.